I went there expecting to
attend yoga classes
learn about yoga
DO yoga
But that's not what happened.
I found yoga.
The classes faded to the background and it was the meditation opportunities that drew me in and held me. I've heard that praying is talking to God; meditation is listening to God.
6:00 am: I'm in a dim room lit only by candles with a soft voice in the background, deep into my own breath, open to whatever God is there to tell me. Anxiety fades away, fears melt, concerns about "What if?" "When?" "Why?" drift to the back of my mind, slide down my back, and evaporate. Gone, just gone.
What remained?
Peace
Calm
Balance
For the first time in my life, I saw where I want to be - the place I deserve to be. No worries, no anxiety, no fretting. Living in the moment, not the past, not the future. The now.
Why do I deserve to own that peace? Not because I'm such an amazing person and because I've done amazing things. No, I deserve that place of calm because I am a child of God and heir to all of His riches. That's why.
We all are wonderful, blessed people, and we all have spirits that can open to that place of calm. Choose to embrace it, choose to believe it, choose joy and everything that comes with it.
Thoughts to take with me today: Depression is living the the past; anxiety is living the future; peace is living in the now. Choose.
You know, this is what I have often expected to find in yoga classes, but have rarely found. How lovely for you to find this without even expecting it!
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