to the invisible geography
that invites me to new frontiers
to break the dead shell of yesterdays
to risk being disturbed and changed
May I have the courage today
to live the life I would love
to postpone my dream no longer
but do at last what I came here for
and waste my heart on fear no more
can i second a line?
....and waste my heart on fear no more...
How many times have I said,
"When I lose weight, I will _______."
"I can't do____________, I weigh too much."
"What will people think of me if I ___________?"
No more, just no more.
I CHOOSE to be disturbed...
I CHOOSE to shake off old habits
I CHOOSE to take a chance
I CHOOSE to be who I am supposed to be
I CHOOSE to choose joy and all the good that comes with it.
I CHOOSE to start Yoga Teacher Training (YTT) this fall.
I REFUSE to put off any more experiences because I'm not thin enough, or pretty enough, or good enough, or any other descriptors I think others could think. No, just no... done with all of that.
Will I be the most flexible, the best prepared, the top of the class? I hope not. I hope I'm at the very bottom. I hope I have 20 or more people to look up to and to see where I can be one day. I hope I walk out of every class with my head spinning with all that I've been exposed to from both the instructor and the other students. Good... I hope I learn humilty along with yoga and never forget from where I came. I will be stronger in the long run for it.
Most of all....
I hope that I never, ever forget the feeling of deep awe I have right now that some mysterious line has been crossed.
I hope that when I do teach I see the possiblities in every student.
I hope that one day I am able to give back the grace and love I've been so freely given
I hope that my spirit will continue to grow and expand and allow me to take in even more
I hope I never stop learning and never ever think "I've arrived."
Thoughts to take with me today: Namaste