So today, I'm on the net and an advertisement catches my eye - "Plus Size Dresses For Spring Now On Sale!"
I clicked on it thinking I could use a new dress for Spring.
Then sat back in amazement.
I'm not a plus-size and haven't been for a very long time.
This prompted me to go looking around the net wondering if I'm sorta unique and come to find out, nah, not really.
It's called "Phantom fat." I get it...truly.
The idea is that just like in losing a limb and the body still feels like it's there, in my case, my body has lost over 85 pounds and still I feel like the fat has never left. Ever.
How to get over this feeling? Well, apparently, it's pretty simple - time. Just time. Time to adjust to what I see in the mirror, time to feel, look, listen, and believe.
Believe...
My life can be different
The weight is gone, forever
What I see is real
I can relax
It's okay
Maybe next year, I'll see the same ad and smile and know that's not my area any more.
Maybe the year after
Either way, it will happen
Thoughts to take with me today: Who knew there were so many steps to healthy?
The disconnect is a little weird. Sometimes I catch a glimpse of myself in reflection and think "is that ME?". Or I have a hard time believing that I am a smaller size. Overall, not a bad place to be though :)
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